MOODY MONDAY

I would just like to say that on Saturday I was YELLOW. I am working on becoming a warmline volunteer. I copied the following information about the warmline from the website www.postpartumcouples.com.

Arizona Warmline:
(888) 434-MOMS

When you call the warmline you will leave a message and a trained parent volunteer who has "been there" will return your call as soon as possible. The warmline volunteers offer support, encouragement, resources, and referrals within your community in the state of Arizona.
We are here to help. You are not alone.

I spoke with the coordinator for the warmline on Saturday and we are going to meet this weekend so I can get the materials that I need to do this. I am super excited! I want to feel like my suffering had a purpose, and this is just a small way that I can help. I was also seeing yellow because of this.

I have been having a lot of fun fixing up some old furniture pieces for my bedroom. I like to think about how far I have come and the changes that I have been making to myself while I do this. It has been very therapeutic.

Anyways on to my mood today. I'm at a 2 GREEN. If I can get all my chores done for the day then I'll bet I'm seeing YELLOW by the end of the day. If not GREEN will do :) Have a great day!

MOODY MONDAY

3 AQUA. So I've had a little more anxiety this past week. It lasts for about 10 seconds. I feel like I can't breathe and my head starts to spin, but I pull out of it quickly. I think it is triggered by the fact that things are going well. I usually start to worry that something bad is going to happen when I'm doing good. That's just what I have learned from my life experiences. So I'm trying to find the middle. I know we all have good and bad days. My mood doesn't always have to be super happy nor does it need to be down in the dumps depressed. Which makes me wonder.......I really want to have this photo shoot with my kids, but what are the chances that I will be seeing YELLOW on Monday 4 weeks in a row. Not very good I think, so I'm changing my goal. I need to see YELLOW at least once a week for 4 weeks in a row. That seems more realistic to me. Because really there is nothing wrong with GREEN, PINK, OR AQUA. I'm happy seeing all of these colors, and that is my real goal. To just be happy! Most of the time :) Have a great day!

MOODY MONDAY

Let's get right to it. 2 Green. Isn't that just fantastic! It might have something to do with the fact that the kids are back in school :) I know I'm headed in the right direction. My meds are working the way they should, and I'm going to therapy every other week instead of once a week now. So things are looking good. I'm gonna go to bed now cause I'm kinda tired. Oh and today I found joy in hanging out with my sister tonight. The one that lives with me. She is amazing and I love her! Good night.

Hooray for Education!!!!!

Today I find joy in this. . . . .


I sent my boys off for their first day of school. The one in the green shirt is going to be in all day kindergarten. I'll be praying for his teacher today:)

The beginning of the school year is sort of an anniversary for me. It was after I sent my first son to kindergarten 4 years ago that I started having the intrusive thoughts. I was home alone with my two babies and it was terrifying. Today I sent off my second son to kindergarten with a heart full of love for my children. I look back at the past 4 years and I can see how far I have come. I know it's Wednesday and not Moody Monday, but today I see YELLOW, and it feels AWESOME! Have a great day!

MOODY MONDAY

I missed last Monday because we decided to go to Sea World last minute. We had a fabulous time as a family. As for my mood I'm gonna have to go with a 3 AQUA! I love this color. It is the color of my bedroom walls. It's very calming, but I still want YELLOW! Therapy is going well, and I think I'm getting my meds finally figured out. Oh and by the way school starts this Wednesday, and we are all very excited around here! And my 10 year anniversary is this Tuesday. I love my husband so much for sticking by me over the past 10 years. He is the BEST! So lots of good things are happening. I'm sharing more of myself with those around me and that feels good. Have a HAPPY MONDAY!