"Be Still"
Hillary Weeks
Another day, I'll try again.
But can You tell me will the hurting ever end?
I've been taught, and I believe,
But its been awhile since I've been on my knees.
But I need You by my side.
I don't have the strength to make it on my own.
And Lord do you hear my prayer?
How soon will You answer me?
I know you're weary.
I know you've had all you can bear,
And now you ask of me on bended knee,
I promise I'll be there.
I've watched you struggle,
And yet I can see how much you've grown.
Child could you feel my power in your darkest hour?
You were not alone.
Be still and know that I am God.
I'm by your side,
Whom shall you fear?
I'll give you strength.
My child, I am here!
Be still and know that I am God,
And there's no prayer that I don't hear.
Lift up your head my child.
I am here.
Right now I am finding joy in my faith. Faith in my Savior Jesus Christ. Faith in the plan that is for me. This past week I have really tried to pray and ponder the scriptures every day, and to know who I really am. My stake patriarch came to our house last Sunday night at my request, and visited with me and my husband. I wanted to learn from him and feel of the tremendous spirit that he brings. He has so much knowledge and I was spiritually fed that night.
He encouraged me to look in the mirror, and to really try to make a connection with my spirit. If we can truly understand the spirit that is ours, and where we come from, we can get through the trials in our life. The next morning I put my kids in front of the tv and locked myself in the closet. I listened to this song "Be Still" on repeat while I stared at myself in the mirror for a good 15 minutes. It was an awesome experience. You should try it.
The further I get out of this trial of PPD the more I can see that I never was alone. I sure felt alone while I was there, but now I can see that the Lord was by my side the whole time. I know that Heavenly Angels surrounded me and protected me and my family from harm.
I know we have a loving Heavenly Father. I know that Jesus Christ died for me, and that he understands all the pain and sorrow that I have felt in my life. I don't know why some trials have to be so hard, but I know that each trial I overcome I come away better and stronger for it. So bring it on. Not really. I could use a little break.
