Door #1 or Door #2

Two weeks ago I came here with one of my best friends and thousands of other woman. For my birthday/mother's day gift I got to leave my family for 4 days and go up to BYU for Women's Conference. For two full days I attended spiritually uplifting classes. We raced like mad women from class to class to make sure we could get in. The rooms filled up quickly, and while I'm sure all the classes were excellent. I didn't want to end up in a class about taking care of your elderly parents, or adjusting to life as an empty nester.

My favorite class was titled "I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content" (Philippians 4:11) I love that! This is my new favorite scripture. A young mother of one child who lost her husband to cancer three years ago was one of the speakers for this class. I watched her as she sat on stage before the class started, and tears were filling my eyes. I could sense and feel a tremendous amount of love and peace that was being poured down upon her from a loving Heavenly Father as she prepared to tell us her story.

She taught me that in life there are two doors we can choose from. The first door has the word WHY on it. This door is very easy to open and once we are inside, it is hard to get out. We constantly ask why we have to go through such hard trials. I know I have done a lot of this.

The second door has the word WHAT on it. This door is harder to open, but once we are inside we allow ourselves to become submissive to Heavenly Father. We ask what can I do to be better? What am I supposed to learn from my trials? We allow Heavenly Father to teach us and show us the way. I feel like I almost have this door open.

The other day my daughter was trying to open the door to our business and the door got too heavy for her to completely open and it closed on her arm. I quickly ran over and opened the door for her and she was fine. I thought of door #2 as I freed my daughters arm from this heavy door. I feel like I am caught in the doorway of what, and I wish sometimes that someone would just open the door the rest of the way for me. I know that I have to figure it out for myself. I also know that I need to work on having more trust and faith in Heavenly Father.

The other 2 days that I was in Utah were spent visiting with family members who live there and lots of SHOPPING! I bought this yellow flower box and lots of other fantastic things for my bedroom. It was crazy how much joy I felt by just looking at these fresh tulips. They have since died, but I will continue to have fresh flowers in my bedroom. You should try having fresh flowers in your bedroom. It improved many things in my bedroom. If you know what I mean.

Anyways now I'm just being silly. My grandma reads this blog. Have I no decency! Thanks for checking in. Sorry I'm not a very good blogger.