MOODY MONDAY

I'm not going to give a color to my mood today. I honestly don't know how I would rate where I am at. The last few days have been very sad for our family. One of the greatest men I have ever known, my father in law, passed away suddenly at work on Friday. It broke my heart to sit down with our children and tell them that their grandpa had died. My husband did a wonderful job at bearing his testimony to our kids about the knowledge that we have that grandpa is in heaven and that we will see him again someday. I love this man with all my heart. I have known him for half of my life. He was like a second Dad to all of my brothers and sisters. He raised my brother Brian as if he was his own son. He was such a great example to all that he came in contact with and he will be greatly missed.



This is a picture of all the grandchildren that we had framed for grandpa's 60th birthday just over a week ago. He was so proud of all his grandchildren. My father in law is an avid Chicago Cubs fan so we had these t-shirts made for the kids to wear. It says Grandpa's Favorite Cubs. Grandpa loved these kids so much and we pray that they will be able to hang on to the memories that they have with their grandpa.

I'm so thankful for the knowledge that I have that families are together forever! Love you Dad!

MOODY MONDAY

I'm great! YELLOW! I had a fantastic week with my family during Fall Break. I'm so looking forward to crafting with friends on Friday. Today I got my story typed up for the Perinatal Mood Disorder training conference coming up next week. I'm looking forward to speaking on the panel again. I invited my mother in law to come with me. I don't know how much of my story she knows. If she reads my blog she hasn't told me she does. Lately she has shown an interest in knowing about what I've been through. I figured this would be a good way to let her know where I've been over the last five years. Should be a good time. Have a great week!

MOODY MONDAY

It feels good to be YELLOW once again. It has been awhile. I'm feeling strong. Friday was a beautiful day for my brother to get married. I'm so happy for him and his new wife.

Aren't they so cute together? I'm so thankful for my in-laws who have raised my brother for the past six years. They did an amazing job.

I love this time of year! I'm looking forward to the holidays and the cooler weather. I'm also looking forward to crafting. I'm going to make this


this

and this



I can't wait! Check out www.notsupersaturday.blogspot.com orders are due tomorrow. Have a great week!

Doing Better

I just wanted to get on here and say that I'm feeling a lot better today. I went to group then out to lunch with some girls from group. I was able to gather my thoughts and I emailed them to my therapist. She responded positively. All is well. I have a voice! It might take me 24 hours to find it, but it is there.

MOODY MONDAY

7 orange I wish I could say that I'm orange for Halloween. I'm feeling really discouraged and hopeless today. I saw my therapist this morning and it didn't go well. She was like why are we even here. She says that I'm sabotaging myself. She says that I'm going back to my old coping skills and I'm not using my tools. She said that I need to get assertive and stop being the victim. She wants to try doing the EMDR therapy on me again. She said she is going to push me harder than I've ever been pushed before. I left the office feeling sick to my stomach and with my anxiety level at a 7. I've just tried to stay busy today and not think about it too much. My brother is getting married on Friday, so this week is going to be busy. Hopefully that will help me push through this week. Have a great week!